Oh. That's a shame. I think I actually got some of my father's good attributes! He was a bit goofy himself!
[Meanwhile when Luz got mad or stubborn, she certainly resembled her mother. The only thing she was missing was the dreaded chancla].
No, trust me, I know it's a struggle to get out of that every day. People who never had to go through that are just not going to understand how easy it is to slip back into the ways you were taught.
[Again, thinking of Amity, but also the boys, who still had to sometimes fend off their worse impulses].
They did. I'm sure wherever dad is, he'd love to hear that, and mom would just be pleased to know that I'm still bringing my enthusiasm to other places!
[Thinking of them hurt, of course, how could it not? They were her parents. But she knew part of her would still be back home, trying to fix things as best as she could].
We're all taught how to deal with anger sometimes, Darth Maul. Sometimes its distractions, sometimes you have to face it head on, and sometimes you just need someone to remind you that you have great things still happening for yourself.
Well, it may not be the most healthy way of dealing with it, but I don't seek to ever lose it. Anger has served me thus far in my life and I think it shall serve me for far longer.
I think everyone needs a little bit of anger in their life. If they didn't have that, they would just be fine with anything that happened to them.
You just have to know when you don't need it to be front and center all the time, right? Any emotion we feel can be harmful if it's the only thing that we put up.
The problem is usually when anger isn't at the forefront of my mind something like hate or the desire for revenge is. I don't generally have a lot of positive emotions that color my thoughts from moment to moment.
I usually try to temper my more negative feelings through a hobby. I paint. I go flying. Heck, I ride the Fathiers (saddle needed). Doing that reminds me there's more to my emotional well-being than dwelling in a bad place. It only hurts me if I stay there anyway.
I've been getting better with creative outlets. I take care of the pets, I've learned how to draw, I even go out for walks in nature now. Being with people I care about helps too. It makes those positive emotions easier to find. That's why I missed having Reaper around. He brings me such happiness.
That's a good idea! That helps me out too, honestly. I get so bogged down by the bad stuff most of the time, I can forget that there are plenty of good things happening to me too!
I'm glad to hear that. Reaper is a pretty calming presence in our house too. That's why we're glad he's still decided to live here!
He cares for all of you a great deal. Even in his worst corruption, he was still focused on protecting the household. He's really much more soft under the surface than he'd ever want to admit.
[And were he awake, he'd likely have made Maul delete that before sending it.]
I know. It's actually kind of funny how many people in this house have had complicated pasts, and despite that still love each other in the house. I just hope it stays that way.
Thank you for that, Luz. I like people to still fear me.
Well, I should be going. Reaper will be waking up soon and we need to have a long talk before he can properly start healing. It's going to be a while until he's back on his feet at full strength.
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Date: 2022-05-27 01:13 pm (UTC)[Meanwhile when Luz got mad or stubborn, she certainly resembled her mother. The only thing she was missing was the dreaded chancla].
No, trust me, I know it's a struggle to get out of that every day. People who never had to go through that are just not going to understand how easy it is to slip back into the ways you were taught.
[Again, thinking of Amity, but also the boys, who still had to sometimes fend off their worse impulses].
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Date: 2022-05-29 09:21 am (UTC)[She manages to put up with Maul, of all people, so clearly they had done something right.]
Exactly. Some people wonder how I can be so angry all the time. I wonder how they never feel so much anger all the time.
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Date: 2022-05-30 06:38 am (UTC)[Thinking of them hurt, of course, how could it not? They were her parents. But she knew part of her would still be back home, trying to fix things as best as she could].
We're all taught how to deal with anger sometimes, Darth Maul. Sometimes its distractions, sometimes you have to face it head on, and sometimes you just need someone to remind you that you have great things still happening for yourself.
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Date: 2022-05-31 08:07 am (UTC)<--says the hypocrite
Date: 2022-05-31 11:21 am (UTC)You just have to know when you don't need it to be front and center all the time, right? Any emotion we feel can be harmful if it's the only thing that we put up.
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Date: 2022-07-05 10:02 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2022-07-05 02:00 pm (UTC)I usually try to temper my more negative feelings through a hobby. I paint. I go flying. Heck, I ride the Fathiers (saddle needed). Doing that reminds me there's more to my emotional well-being than dwelling in a bad place. It only hurts me if I stay there anyway.
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Date: 2022-07-07 09:55 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2022-07-07 02:20 pm (UTC)I'm glad to hear that. Reaper is a pretty calming presence in our house too. That's why we're glad he's still decided to live here!
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Date: 2022-09-02 11:12 am (UTC)[And were he awake, he'd likely have made Maul delete that before sending it.]
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Date: 2022-09-02 01:53 pm (UTC)But I won't tell if you won't.
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Date: 2022-09-03 09:26 am (UTC)[But they're already a lost cause with this particular girl given how Luz knows exactly what they're like beneath the surface.]
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Date: 2022-09-03 04:44 pm (UTC)[Oh, she did, but she knew enough to try and not leak out their secrets].
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Date: 2022-09-04 08:34 am (UTC)Well, I should be going. Reaper will be waking up soon and we need to have a long talk before he can properly start healing. It's going to be a while until he's back on his feet at full strength.
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Date: 2022-09-04 09:22 am (UTC)Right, you do that. Be sure to let him know that I'm keeping his usual spots warm for him in the house!
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Date: 2022-09-04 09:26 am (UTC)I'll talk to you later, Luz.